As you may know, I had a bicycle accident in Jackson this summer. I ended up with two sprained wrists, a sprained ankle, bruised ribs and a contusion of the liver. Since I was alone at my dad’s house I had to drive myself to the hospital and back, and didn’t get to bed until 3:30am. In addition to being unable to breathe deeply for the next three weeks it was extremely painful. While at the hospital I was not able to take any pain killers because I would need to drive myself back to the house. When I arrived home and tried to open the bottle of pills I couldn’t twist the cap or hold it to twist with the other hand. I thought, “What would Daddy do?” and put the bottle on the kitchen counter and whacked at it with a hammer until I got it opened!
That week was difficult; I could barely get in and out of bed, walk, breathe or even stay awake. I’d arranged for a plumber to come to the house for repairs, but slept most of the time he was there. My body was really in shock. It helped me relate to what my dad had suffered with COPD, and what my mother had undergone with cancer regarding CT Scans and awaiting results (the doctor had originally said that I had a blood clot in my liver completely unrelated to the accident, but later decided it was trauma related). When I drove back home to Buffalo (normally a 6-7 hour trip) it took 10 hours because I had to pull over to sleep so often.
I’m doing much better now, although I’m still strengthening my left wrist and hand through occupational therapy. My problems were nothing compared to what others have: I pray every day for friends that are dealing with cancer and other serious illnesses, and can’t even begin to relate to the struggles and fears they may have.
But I do want to share about the faithfulness of God in my hours of need when I wasn’t even sure I could get through the night. In my normal, daily devotions He spoke very clearly and assuredly to me. The first verse is the one I read while lying in the emergency room, awaiting various tests, and it gave me the peace and certainty that He was in this with me and would see me through it. It was June 26 so I’d looked up Psalm 26:
Examine me, God, from head to foot, order your battery of tests. Make sure I’m fit inside and out so I never lose sight of your love, but keep in step with you, never missing a beat. –Psalm 26:2-3 (MSG)
From there, everything else I read the rest of the week was equally timely and encouraging, and was right in my regular readings each day:
Just as Joseph and the psalmist keep turning to God and trusting Him to turn evil into good, so we, too, must keep looking to God in difficult times. —One Year Book of Psalms, 6/27
Since all that I meet shall work for my good, the bitter is sweet, the medicine food: though painful at present, ’twill cease before long; and then O how pleasant the Conqueror’s song. –John Newton
Show us your mighty power, come to rescue us! Turn us again to yourself, O God. Make your face shine down upon us. Only then will we be saved. –Psalm 80:2b-3 (NLT)
Now I will take the load from your shoulders; I will free your hands from their heavy tasks. You cried to me in trouble, and I saved you; I answered out of the thundercloud and tested your faith when there was no water in Meribah. –Psalm 81:6-7 (NLT)
Happy the child who in thunder-claps detects the Father’s voice. There is no fear in love, because perfect love casteth out the fear that hath torment. –F. B. Meyer
Yes, there were thunderstorms that week in Jackson when I was sleeping nearly all day and night. And yes, that last quote had my Word of the Year in it–“cast!” I”m thankful He met with me in my need and assured me of His presence.