The final quotes this week from my old notebooks come from my own mouth. These are my own words, written down in times that I was really hurting or struggling.
Returning from Denver and my return from Arizona, I was troubled in spirit and pulled over at the rest stop in front of the Big Horn Mountains. It was beautiful! Sunlight and shadows. Green fields. A patchwork quit. And God said to me, “You do not see the whole picture, but I do.” And I imagined how the world must look to birds who can fly high above. I may be in one of the shadows at the moment, or in a dark valley, but that will change. He was telling me, again, to be still and trust Him. He will take care of everything. [4/30/07]
And yet another:
At the Fetterman Massacre site
The heavens declare the glory of God; the skies proclaim the work of His hands. Day after day they pour forth speech; night after night they display knowledge…Their voice goes out into all the earth, their words to the ends of the world…The law of the LORD is perfect, reviving the soul…The precepts of the LORD are right, giving joy to the heart. — From Psalm 19
This is what I wrote after reading that scripture:
He was telling me to once again look to His word for promises, encouragement, wisdom — He does give promises (and I have discerned them correctly) but not in chronological order. I need to leave the interpretation to God alone. Even Isaiah didn’t know the order of his prophecies. I walked across the hillside praying, and picked some flowers to remember these moments. Seeing a cut-out of a guard on horseback (on a distant hill) reminded me of God’s presence. Today He spoke to me in many ways — by His Spirit, through Betty & Hansi (Christian speakers & writers), by His Word, in creation, through circumstances. Thank you Jesus! [6/6/07]